9.88 Benanas
boosted
Good thing happened to me today:
I got a diagnosis.
Its been 13+ years.
Ive been looking for these answers for 13+ years.
Today, i stop looking and start treatment.
Im not sad about the diagnosis
Im sad that it took 13+ years and being disbelieved, dismissed, belittled and gaslit by so many doctors across all of that time to get to this moment.
Its weird to be this relieved at receiving news that i have an incurable condition
If youre in the hell that is undiagnosed limbo, just know that your suffering is real and its not diagnosis that gives you validity. You deserve answers, and you shouldnt have to fight as hard as i did to get them. Love you 🩷
![undiagnosed autism at
school
- welcome to Bullying™. you can never leave
- everyone hates you and you don’t know why
- you are disappointing your parents. you have no
idea how, but you know you are
- people keep taking you on as a pet project
- you spin between “academic genius” and
“profound special needs” daily
- a lady takes you out of class to play with blocks
and answer mental math problems. the reason
why she does this is never explained
- why is everyone so mean?????? to you? to each
other?????? does not compute
- you try to be funny. you fail. spectacularly.
- it feels like the whole world wants to kick your
ass
- “stop that filthy habit [that comforts you in
times of stress that you don’t even realise you're
doing]”
- fuck](https://s3.eu-central-2.wasabisys.com/mastodonworld/media_attachments/files/115/408/148/308/087/372/original/4f5ab7c060364961.png)